The grip is incessant, oppressive and relentless
It takes away all senses
It's like dying, like a hijack
It's confining, a true attack
Except it's all inside my mind
And it's mine, all mine

These are the thoughts that keep me up at night
This is what makes my chest feel tight
This is what I don't let nobody see
Because I'm terrified

It's like being thrown at random
Into a game I won't win
Where the game-master's voice sounds out
On a whim
It tells me over and over again
That I'm an imposter and I have no friends
That no one could truly like me and
Anything that I've achieved was only because I got lucky

These are the thoughts that keep me up at night
This is what makes my chest feel tight
This is what I don't let nobody see
Because I'm terrified of the vulnerability

Why have you never been overseas?
Why don't you own your own home?
Why'd you sit and wait and let yourself be left behind all those years?
Until so much was just gone!
Why is your bank account always depleting and
As a grown-arse adult you still require rescuing?
Why do all things maternal abhor you?
You know that makes you so fucking abnormal!
Why do you look and act the way you do?
You know, he deserves a girl that's much more feminine than you
And you better work harder to deserve where you are because
You're the weakest link in this chain by far - I said
Keep the poison in your mouth, don't spit it out
Keep the poison in your mouth, don't spit it out

These are the thoughts that keep me up at night
This is what makes my chest feel tight
This is what I don't let nobody see
Because I'm terrified...
This is the shit that keep me up at night
This is what makes my chest feel tight
This is what I don't let nobody see
Because I'm terrified
Of what you'll think of me